Thursday, April 03, 2008


I have been thinking a lot lately about fear...what are you afraid of? I have already faced one of my biggest fears...I have a name of a child I gave birth to written on a granite rectangle. I thought once I faced that fear that the rest of them would seem insignificant. Not true lately...I am struggling with not making decisions based on fear. I want to let the peace of God guard my heart and mind. I want to rest in knowing He is sovereign, but fact is I still struggle with fear. Fear of failure, fear of goodbyes, the list goes on.

I don't want the fears to hold me back from what God is calling me to do. I want to be like the servant in the Bible who multiplies the talent the master gave him....not the one who buries it because he was afraid. I want to know the master so well that I am not afraid of what he is asking of me...but knowing he will equip me to do the job he has asked me to do. I don't want fear to control me.

I want there to be peace in my heart and to not make decisions just because I am afraid. I want to step into a place that seems dark and shadowy and meet Him there....the light is always just a few steps away.

Will you press into the pain with me and meet Him on the other side of the pain? He is enough....that I do know.


Corie O'Brien said...

Love that. Fear is so hard to face. Thanks for walking with me during this long season of fear. Love ya sister!

Shanygne said...

I have just spent the last 30 minutes crying... catching up on your posts... you are such a treasure, Laura! I am so grateful that you didn't give up when it would have been so easy, and that God drew us together. I am so proud of all you are doing with your pain and the blessing you are to so many...

I love you!

Carlton and Aimee Weathers said...

Fear can really get a hold on you. Great post, I needed it.
Miss you!

boltefamily said...

I am trying to press into the pain! Thank you so much for this post! Praying for you as you press on as well!