Saturday, December 30, 2006

Christmas


We made it through Christmas!! I wondered at many points during the week if I was going to be able to go through with all of it. I think it helped that we were snowed in for 3 of the days before Christmas, unable to get out in all the hustle and bustle. Just the 5 of us at home, playing in the snow and being together. I missed Pearl , but knew her presence was with us as we celebrated with the kids. Man, she celebrated Christmas with JESUS! What a time she had....do you think there will be video of that? I hope so! There has been a peace and a hope that settle in my heart sometimes...when I am not fighting it. Sometimes the waves of fear overtake me and I feel as if I drowning in fear again and He cannot hear my cries to Him. I need to remember just like in the real ocean that you have to go with the waves, dive under them and wait calmly, knowing the wave will pass and I will not drown. Sometimes waves can even be fun if you can stay calm......I want to be able to trust Him and rest knowing that I will not drown and He is there with me. I want the fragrance of heaven to be lingering in my nose.....I want the fragrance to linger when I have left the room....I want my children to be thinking about heaven and all that there is waiting for us when we have left this confusing, painful place. I want to be thinking about heaven when the waves of fear and doubt overtake me. As a new year is almost here there is so much that is behind us...oh what a year! But, there is so much that is ahead of us too. I want to take hold of all those things with hope in my eyes and heart as well as the scent of heaven in my nose.

4 comments:

Beth said...

Just thought I'd check in. I think of you often and take it as a reminder to pray for you during this difficult season of your lives.

Blessings on your new year!

Ade said...

Thank you, Jesus, that we can approach the Throne and be comfortable there...even though it's an adirondack and it's in the snow, and I'm hoping heaven isn't filled with snow, well maybe it is, but we won't be cold, anyway, the picture speaks loudly of where we can humbly and boldly approach the King of Kings. You're beautiful...I can smell it from here...

Kim said...

Laura, I am so glad that we can become blog friends. One can always use another friend. I am always in awe that people would want to read my ramblings, 'who knew' as Caren would say. I have heard about you for years so it will be fun to get to know you better.

The MacMurchy Fam said...

Beautiful Laura Jean - I can only imagine how healing the writing is for you. Me too. I changed the name of the poem to 'Pearl Our Pearl.' Recopy it from my blog if you'd like. I like the new name. I love you - care